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Journal Entry: Tue Feb 9, 2010, 1:56 PM



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Is ashamed to say it. but art will just have to wait it's turn.

Between two jobs, No computer (using a friends when he is out of the house which doesn't have my art on it) long ass hours, singing in a band and only one day of sleep I most desperately need... I can't find time to do the things I would like just so I can live.

Are people proud of me yet? I guess I earned the bags under my eyes and the empty feeling when I sleep. Hurray for being a 21 year old ADULT now.

this is the last post till I get a break from work. for now. sleep till my next job.

Wish me luck that I can find sometime to draw. I REALLY WANT TOO

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Listening to: cats eating dry food
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: my cig ash alway in my fingertips
  • Playing: music to help me sleep
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: lots of water. no more beer for a while

Renewed

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 2, 2010, 5:56 PM



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Im a little lost right now. sorry. I have been off on my art game for the last.... 4 months. I have failed in so many ways, as a person and as an Artist.
But I have started drawing again. alot actually. It seems to flow, little doodles and what-nots. I am rather impressed with what has happened in my art life. I hope to continue and maybe sing alot more (to bad deviant isn't a music site)

But in life I shall try and grow from my life experiences and my MANY mistakes. Which seem to be growing on me more. My faults are showing like the freckles on my pale skin, so blotchy and gathered together. You can't really tell till you look close.. then that's all one sees. sorry. ranting of the frustrated redhead.

Im just lost. But slowly I shall find my way, art is really the only thing helping.

So yeah for posting new stuff soon. Im also taking rather artistic classy nude photos that I shall make a new Deviant in posting them. Just another art way Im going. So When I do I shall let you know :)

For now, frustrated artist. soon to be a good frustrated artist.

Hope you like what I have yet to post.


Lilu-chan

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: people talking about break ups. making me sad
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: laptop
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: cigs
  • Drinking: green tea/ water

20,000???

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 7, 2009, 5:37 AM



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Where have I been?!?


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I should really update more. >.<!

LOVE you all and thanks for viewing me!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Eye Candy
  • Listening to: ?!
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: ?!
  • Playing: ?!
  • Eating: ?!
  • Drinking: ?!

Happy Candy day

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 31, 2009, 8:56 AM



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I hope u all have a Evil Holiday and there is lots of sweets and goodies and spooks instore!

Do tell me what you were for the All Hollows Eve!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Terror
  • Listening to: Everything Spooky
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: My family move... for evil!
  • Eating: Brains
  • Drinking: Brain Juice

Holy Crapz

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 11, 2009, 4:19 PM



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Where on earth have I been?!?!?!?



lol


Well I have been looking for work.. and in doing so.. I have become.. HOMELESS!!



lol no work for me. But I am still on the lookout and I hope to find something soon.
If u have any work in the Florida area (somewhere in Gains would be perfered) LET ME KNOW


other than that. Art has been slow. I havent really drawn anything in a while but I am going to keep that up too.

Time line


Job hunt


2 hours of drawing


MORE JOB HUNT




that about covers it.


So sorry for nothing new.. BUT I will be doing something soon.



Hope to see u guys around soon!!!


ciao loves

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: New Age
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Eating: Had moes.. Oh.... full
  • Drinking: Icee

IM ALIVE!

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 23, 2009, 6:51 AM



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Holy crap!!! I havent posted anything in like... ages



But. I just wanted to let you know that. yes.. I am alive.. YOU CAN CALL OFF THE SEARCH PEOPLE!

I dont need more cops coming to my house!!

I have enough probs with that on my own thank you!!!


hehe no I kid. But yeah I am alive and well. I haven't drawn anything in a while, but that doesn't mean my insperation isn't flowing. It really is! Ugh I have so many ideas I need to get drawn out.


So I hope to show you that soon. In other news...

yeah... thats all I got....

k!


CIAO

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Bemused
  • Listening to: Prem Joshua
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Eating: nothing... my tummy is grring at me
  • Drinking: is it to early for Sangria?

T-shirts? What what?

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 5, 2009, 4:55 PM



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Hey hey everyone



So I Finally am getting started!! I am going to start making.. MY OWN T SHIRTS!!!


woot!


So I have a site for it.. and I will be posting my designs on here.. But here you go

lilukdesigns.spreadshirt.com

it is (all one word)  LiluK Designs DOT spreadshirt Dot com

So far I have one design up and running and I hope to have more of my own!

You can commission me for some designs as well. So I hope to be posting more soon!



so go checky!!!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Bemused
  • Listening to: Prem Joshua
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Eating: PILLZ!
  • Drinking: Hawiian Punch

Thank you

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 1, 2009, 11:13 AM



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Wow thank you so much for the 16,000 views everyone.


It means alot that people are coming and viewing my work.


I may not get alot of favs, but from the few that I do my heart goes out to each and every one of you that fav it. I always make a Personal thank you every time someone favs my work. So please keep on faving

and I will keep thanking you. I also fav on yours sometimes too! Hehe so thanks for the 16,000


Heres to another 16,000 more!

*glasses tink* Cheers!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Bemused
  • Listening to: Groove Salad
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Eating: PILLZ!
  • Drinking: Hawiian Punch

Thank the gods!

Journal Entry: Sat May 23, 2009, 8:20 PM



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I POSTED SOMETHING!!!



HOLY crap that took a while.


Anywho hey Deviants! I have finally posted something after my long dry spell. To be honest this is only a small part of something Big I have planned for Deviant art. I have T-shirts I am going to be starting soon, and I have the rest of this picture I wanna post soon


So things are looking up.

I hope that You guys are doing well and that ur art is taking off!



Oh and new newz I am starting up a facebook For Lilu S Kitten so if you wish to join me on there please let me knows.


See you around my Deviants!

Lilu-chan

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Bemused
  • Listening to: Random Music on my Computer
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Eating: PILLZ!
  • Drinking: H2O

Sorry!!

Journal Entry: Sun May 17, 2009, 8:56 PM



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Sorry I havent posted in a while!!

I have been so busy.



I really want to draw but I havent had the urge to!!!


GOD need to draw!


so soon I will post new things! I swear to it!!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

what ever

Journal Entry: Fri May 8, 2009, 9:11 PM



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Fuck my life

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Steaming
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

Woot

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 28, 2009, 8:57 PM



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15000 mark



cool cool


that is all

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Angsty
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

Just

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 26, 2009, 9:39 PM



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wanting to understand,

willing to learn,

finding the right path,

which way to go.


High hopes and dreams,

working hard for it,

not going to fail,

What I want.


Reading people,

think about you,

never know what you say,

How do you see me?


Willing to take that chance,

Jump in with all my heart,

Willing to chash if may,

Im willing to take that chance.


Feeling amazing,

Knowing Im fine,

Breathing in deep,

I will make it on time.






I feel great. I feel like I am being a little... I dont know..

I think I am feeling really needy. But I am fighting the urge so I will be okay.


Just... need to think.. un .. needy .. thoughts !!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Content
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

Fuuuun

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 25, 2009, 10:14 PM



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Had an amazing night the other night!


Danced all night with friends and had to much fun doing it. Woke up the next day and played halo till 12 at night with more friends! To much fun fun.

just... FUN!!

I thought I would be sore the next day from dancing but it was tooo good.



lol..... FUUUUN!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Content
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

Money

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 23, 2009, 10:46 PM



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IT SUCKS MAN!!!



Why do we need money to do things???


I hate knowing I like dont have any. Just gotta save up what I can and then... just... I dont know.. stand on a street corner I guess.... Stripings a great work out so I am told.. I could use a little working out.



Yeah...



Money blows!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Content
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

So...

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 23, 2009, 7:20 PM



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I might be getting a car. That will be cool.


just need a job now

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Content
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Drinking: H2O

So this is it

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 23, 2009, 8:59 AM



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So, this is it. I never thought it would turn out like this.

I never saw it coming, this pain that burns inside.

This beating in my chest, this ringing in my ears.

How it hurts to breath. How long could I hold my breath?


So, this is it. This is how you break ones heart.

How this hole bleeds, this outline of you long gone.

If I let you scar, would it help?


So, this is it. My life from now on, so many things.

I can't see what will happen, I can't see what will be.

How can I do it alone? I dont know of this world.

if, I can't make it. What then?


So, this is it. So... this is me.











So, this is you.

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Anguish
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: Guild wars
  • Eating: pancakes
  • Drinking: H2O

Just My life

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 10, 2009, 4:16 PM



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Je ne crois pas des girafes!!!

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Just another day at the old grind...

... nothings changed.. though I have lost some weight that I will surely get back in a matter of minutes.


I drew something cool, that's always awesome. Like how it is turning out. Wish I could have my inspiration with me. But I have time so it is all good.


Going back to school on Tuesday. Not so much fun, I have finals coming up the ying yang. So stressing aboot that a little.


so yeah...


Oh still go to this site! and get a t-shirt designed by meez. dreamingofeden.bigcartel.com/p…

hope you like.


so... yeah.


I feel sick to my stomach. Like I am not hungry kinda sick.

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: Bollywood
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: nothing fun
  • Playing: photoshop
  • Eating: Cant finish my chilly I made
  • Drinking: Air H2O

Go here please

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 7, 2009, 8:16 PM



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Je ne crois pas des girafes!!! ><

Hey You guys! So the people who Bought my T-shirt design Just put it up on there site soo please please please go buy!!! I love it so much



dreamingofeden.bigcartel.com/p…
dreamingofeden.bigcartel.com/p…
dreamingofeden.bigcartel.com/p…


Great shirt! I can't wait to get mine!!

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Pride
  • Listening to: Nightmare Revisited
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: My awesome Lappy!
  • Playing: Atlantica
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: wata

why...

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 3, 2009, 8:12 PM



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Je ne crois pas des girafes!!! ><

Why is it when i really really REALLY want to talk, there is no one around!


well maybe because it is always at night.. but still....

ugh I need friends in other places in a different time zone!



lilu-chan

Thanks again for reading

Lilu-chan


  • Mood: Grouchy
  • Listening to: Nightmare Revisited
  • Reading: Journal back to me
  • Watching: My awesome Lappy!
  • Playing: Atlantica
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: wata